Yes. Yes, it is too bloody much. But even so you will come out of this, there is an end, and it won't be anything like now. But I am so sorry you're enmeshed in so much misery and anger right now.
Baby steps and deep breaths. Change is difficult and painful, but it's the only way we grow. The phoenix will rise from the ashes. In the meanwhile, we are holding your tender heart in our gentle hands.
Dear T., think of yourself as having just been in a terrible car accident. You are in deep shock. You shouldn't move too quickly or make too many decisions without being in the care of loving friends--let the people who know you best and love you most hold you through this. Go easy, be tender to yourself. Cry, rail, wail, howl, but not always alone--let people help you through this--you may be surprised who is able to help you most. You are loved here, clearly and greatly, but you need real hands to hold, real arms around you, real cautions and soothing in real-time voices. But also keep coming here, yes? xo Melissa
It IS too much and the comparison to other shock-inducing events is very true. Real arms, clearer minds, one small moment at a time. Tiny steps. We'll be here. xo Marylinn
Let it all out.....
ReplyDeleteI'm with Cro - let it all out! You've got grief a'plenty and it requires a blow out. Got a tennis racket or some such thing? Beat the bed!!
ReplyDeleteYes. Yes, it is too bloody much. But even so you will come out of this, there is an end, and it won't be anything like now. But I am so sorry you're enmeshed in so much misery and anger right now.
ReplyDeletei think this is why the blues were invented. (just avert your eyes until the intro is over:)
ReplyDeletehttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FVpDOIPx_sY
Rage and rant, scream and shout, it helps the miseries get out. Much better than keeping it bottled up inside and it helps you heal faster.
ReplyDeleteBaby steps and deep breaths.
ReplyDeleteChange is difficult and painful, but it's the only way we grow.
The phoenix will rise from the ashes.
In the meanwhile, we are holding your tender heart in our gentle hands.
Good grief! What for him to leave and change the locks. You have rights.
ReplyDeleteIt is too much. One breath at a time. Holding you.
ReplyDeleteDear T., think of yourself as having just been in a terrible car accident. You are in deep shock. You shouldn't move too quickly or make too many decisions without being in the care of loving friends--let the people who know you best and love you most hold you through this. Go easy, be tender to yourself. Cry, rail, wail, howl, but not always alone--let people help you through this--you may be surprised who is able to help you most. You are loved here, clearly and greatly, but you need real hands to hold, real arms around you, real cautions and soothing in real-time voices. But also keep coming here, yes? xo Melissa
ReplyDeleteyes, it is.
ReplyDeleteAnd you will get through it one breath at a time. You ARE getting through it.
But you are right; it IS too fucking much.
Just back...checking in.
ReplyDeleteAre you okay?
It IS too much and the comparison to other shock-inducing events is very true. Real arms, clearer minds, one small moment at a time. Tiny steps. We'll be here. xo Marylinn
ReplyDeleteYes.
ReplyDeleteTo your words.
To you.
To all you are.
So much
yes.